Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Part 2
Monday, April 28, 2008
The Last Bencher.
He was one of the back-benchers,not because He was not interested in what was going on but rather because He got a bird's eyeview of people from where was sitting.There she was on the first row of chairs,the sunlight catching the beautiful shade of her brown coloured hair..He liked the way the earrings in her ears scintillated in the soft sunlight.His hands invariably picked up the pencil and before He knew it He was sketching an indelible image of her,as much on the paper as on the untouchable canvas of His memory in colours that were known only to His imagination.The professor was going on about torques,tensors,vectors and what not..He could'nt wait for the class to end.He had decided-he would speak to her today,come hell or high water.But somehow every time he made up his mind and his courage,something or the other would happen that shot all his plans even before they took off.Like for example last week,she was standing right in front of him in the line at the canteen.he had just opened his mouth to utter a hello when his mobile rang,some officious upstart from an obscure bank wanted to ask him some inane questions and by the time he had ticked him off,she had made her purchase and moved to join her friends.Her friends..how much He envied the girls and was downright jealous of the guys..especially that two-faced,pretentious fellow who acted holier-than-thou in her presence,but he knew what he was really,what his true image was.How much it pained Him to watch her respond to his comments,his jokes,his "innocent" demeanour.Well it was true that he was rich,had a bike,was good looking and knew how to play people's emotions with his conduct.And that was what made him an adversary,a very dangerous one too...Because whether He liked it or not,he lacked all that,he was neither rich nor was he an Adonis,he could not manipulate people,but he had a good heart,a heart that sang true for people he cared for and would go the extra mile to help them...But the problem was,she did not know anything of this,her world and mind space was occupied by that devil with an angelic face and a mind to mismatch.The bell shattered his reverie and people started tob make a bee-line for the door.He got up hurriedly and stuffed everything pell-mell into his satchel and followed his classmates' example.He caught up with her just as she was reaching the first steps of the building.Thankfully she was alone,but there he was waiting at the gate leaning sauvely on the hood of his car..The monster within His bosom gave a mighty roar of indignation and bared its fangs..He had to move fast,he could not loose a single moment,his heart was racing as he closed the distance between Him and her.He was right behind her now."Excuse me",he said,"you dropped your pen back there".She looked back at him and took and blinked in the sunlight.She vaguely remembered his face but could not place it."Thanks",she said and was gone before he could say anything else. He watched with ever increasing rage as she practically ran to him and got into the car.He must have been lost in those thoughts for quite sometime and was brought out of his red haze by a piercing pain in his palm,and as he looked down he noticed the pencil in his hand which he had strongly enough to snap it into two.Gathering his senses,he moved away and slowly started walking towards the library.There was a Maths olympiad coming up and he wanted to do well in it.He shook his head as he walked to clear his thoughts and decided to get over his feelings for her,it was going nowhere and leading him into bouts of depression.He had enough on his plate already.He threw himself into the preparation and kept his mind occupied with a fierce dedication.It was a few days before the olympiad when it all started happening and looking back now he wished he had never went down that stone path.
To be continued.....
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
Sunday, April 20, 2008
D day before the day before...
on a more serious note,ever wondered wot brings two ppl together...personalities?circumstances?situations?exactly wot?....some ppl live in d same group for quite sometime and end up alone in d crowd...while in other cases,two perfect strangers meet up on a train and end up travelling d journey of life together.....some diamonds are never found for d lack of ppl who apppreciate dem while some stones adorn d crown out of sheer dumb luck.....Like a hidden diamond,some ppl wait endlessly for dat special someone to discover dem..to polish dem and wear dem on their crowns.....as a friend of mine told me,wen a diamond hurts if u wear it on ur finger, den its place is on d crown dat adorns ur head...
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Memory Lane
Movies and anger management
somebody said,i dont remember who,dat dont tell ur children not to get angry,teach them how to get angry...quite true...there are so many situations,i am sure many of us have faced,wen d situation compels us to explode in a grand exhibition of rage...impotent rage,i must say.the simple reason being,wot do u achieve by throwing ur tantrum?..if i be allowed to answer,i wud say nothing other dan wasting ur energy yelling...the ppl whom u r yelling at might not even give a damn bout it..they shall listen wid one ear and chuck it by d other and u turn out to be a spectacle for bystanders...forget about ppl who dont care bout d fact dat they have hurt u..they dont even matter..consider d consequences for those who care..wot if ur tantrums and short fuse end up in creating a distance between urself and them...the only thing a short temper or a tendency to not channelise ur rage does is alienate u from others by making dem walk a tight rope wen they deal wid u.....they will care for u but will always b wary of ur anger...its also important,i feel to sieve out the ppl dat shall make u angry wid full knowledge of wot they are doing,jus to see u blow urself and others to smithereens wid ur rage and d ones dat unintentionally step on ur toes...so as i said,its not about not getting angry,its about HOW to get angry....
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Decisions..and some new threads
anyways...yesterday i was chatting wid one of my friends online wen she pointed out d way SMS english had pervaded into d way we write..'the' becomes 'd','before' becomes 'b4'..and so on and so forth..sad..or is it?..for ppl who SMS regularly,it becomes more of a reflex to use these abbreviations (by d way,why is abbreviation such a long word?)..its quite obvious why...wen you are typing out a msg on ur mobile,u need to b fast and d only means of achieving it is to cut short d "useless" stuff from words.. i mean, ppl and people,both convey d same meaning,but its much easier to write ppl dan people...personal experience..which brings me to this question-can we afford to let these kind of spellings to invade d written word..d idea is conveyed is it not,whether u write u or you,ur or your...for d subject specific jargon u really cant do anything,or rather nothing shud be attempted..also,while using abbrv. do we keep d flow of ideas smooth? will it get hindered if we started using full forms..strangely this phenomenon semms to have pervaded only where u need to TYPE and not WRITE...i hope so...
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
came to a decision yesterday...sort of an epiphany u can say...its amazing d amount of time ppl spend in pursuits without thinking whether it's going to pay dem dividends in d end.jus bcos it makes dem happy,they pursue it..they do kno its not going to meet wid a crushing defeat later,but they never ask themselves-will i b ready to face defeat wen it comes knocking on my doorstep..will i embrace it as a part of life or like an ostrich put my head in d sand..sometimes it's better to take stock of things wen it's still not too late rather dan trying to dam a raging river...den u can either make a herculean effort to dam it or allow urself to be pulled by its flow..either way,u wish u had stopped it wen it was not too late...
the human mind is really a weird contraption..it makes one believe in a false hope,making u feel dat it's not a mirage but really an oasis in a desert..how better it wud be if our minds were evolvd to a degree where we could dissociate our feelings wid our thought processed...not to get biased in our decisions by emotions...